When prayers and wishes come true

I know we talk about having faith and trusting in God. And we try hard to practise it. To not live by our own strengths. But it still sent chills up and down my spine when I found that my prayers have been answered - "with lots and lots of toppings". I guess sometimes we kind of forget that God really cares until He shows Himself real again. Or we know that His ways are always higher than ours but we do not really believe. :)

On a sadder note, Grandma's been really ill. And I do pray and wish with all my might that all will be well. It does hurt so when you feel that a loved one is slipping away from you ever so slowly...

Thoughts on Food

The world thinks I'm weird. All because I do not consume exotic food such as shellfish, various seafood, piglets, oh and so many more items if I were to write it down, you could travel around the whole world and back and I wouldn't be finished yet. It simply drives me up the wall when I hear others mention about what a waste it is that my choice of food is so very limited and how much I'm missing out on.

What they do not know is what goes on in my mind. Oh it would certainly amuse you if you knew the repulsion I feel every time I watch someone suck the brains out of a prawn's head, or chew on a big squishy oyster and have its brain and intestines spill out all around his tongue. Bleugh!!!! Even writing this down sends shivers up and down my spine. :P

I guess I have a wild imagination.

As a child, my place at the dining table would be right next to the aquarium. We had goldfish swimming around peacefully in the tank. And each time Mummy cooked fish, I would feel so bad eating mine. I could sense the goldfish watching me pick at his fellow cousin on my plate, all dried and fried. So when we had fish, I would place my fish on my plate at an angle where I hoped our goldfish could not see, even with their big round eyes. Sometimes, I tried cutting the fish up into smaller pieces so that our goldfish would not realize that I have a fish on my dinner plate.

But now we no longer have a fish tank at home, so I get to eat my fish in peace.  :D

Dang!

I can't sleep. Just because he told me what I accomplished was an easy task. Well, he didn't exactly say that, but it sounded close. After I practised so hard too. I want to whack someone hard!

Just so you know, I'm one kiasu girl. Never ever tell me what I do is easy. 

Oh me weekends~

Busy days have become a norm for me already. 'Twas rather a shock to realize that I knew a Friday was coming up but did not actually remember that the weekend comes after a Friday. Imagine my ecstasy when it dawned on me that the weekend was actually just around the corner! That was Thursday.

Then...it had to happen...I received a call that the production line was down. So that explained my Friday. We cracked our heads to solve the errors. I felt like a half-doctor, half-magician. But had fun along the way too. That was the first time I had lunch in the equipment lab. A very taxing day with an even more satisfactory end. Suffice to say, we solved the issue and got the line up and running by 8pm!

With such busy-ness, I've come to appreciate weekends so much more. The solitude, the peacefulness, the feeling of owning the entire two days. And now the fragrance of my butter cake wafting from the oven just about completes my Sunday bliss. Me loves weekends! :) 

With all my heart

I'll be in the worship team this weekend. Getting to know that there will only be three or four of us on stage this round kind of got me nervous for a while. Correction, I am still nervous now. But still, I'm looking forward to it, praying the Holy Spirit will guide my fingers and that the music I make will be pleasing unto Him. Because it's really for Him that I'm playing for. 

I realized that one weekend. Well, not that I've not known it before. But I got to know it for real, like real real. It was when I was feeling down. When I did not feel like playing at all. When I felt like it was a burden. And then it suddenly burnt in my heart, the words "How can you feel this way, when God has done so much for you? It is the King of Kings and the Lords of Lords that you will be playing for. It is an honour...a wonderful and beautiful act of worship." I knew then, that in whatever circumstance I'm in, it is Him who will guide me and bring me out into the light. It is Him on whom I should lean on and on whom I should trust. Because when no one else is able, God is able. 

So here's me, getting ready to worship and play with all my heart. :)

Sleeplessness...

I can't sleep. This is the third night. Very soon, I'll be turning into a zombie.

There are too many thoughts in my upper storey. The problem with me is I have a humongous collection of thoughts all stashed up way up there. And this collection continues to accumulate every minute of everyday.

It would be so very interesting to see the expressions of those who stumble on this collection. Unfortunately, the secret code is so very difficult to break. Believe me, I've tried time and again to make the code easier but to no avail.

I once consulted my best friend on this very issue. Here's how it went:

Me: My hamster's running non-stop and I don't know how to stop him. T.T
Friend: Take out the running wheel.
Me: How do I take it out?
Friend: There must be a nut somewhere.

Thing is, I can't find the nut!!! *pulls hair*

Some Shocking News

Being frustrated at the very laziness of myself, the procrastination that's getting so difficult to cure, I've decided a total makeover for my blog! Starting over anew sure has done the trick. And so, I'm writing once again. *one big happy smile and three pats on the back*

Today I received news. News I've been waiting to hear. News I've been wanting to confirm. I'm going to the United States in January next year! California, to be exact. That's like in three months time? And I'll be there for three months.

I definitely was prepared for the trip, but I hadn't expected it to be so soon! Right now, I'm feeling somewhat stunned. The feelings are all coming all at once. I'm caught in a whirlpool of excitement, nervousness, euphoria, worry, and anxiety. Excitement on traveling half the globe alone, accomplishing great dreams, encountering new experiences. Nervousness on being alone and meeting expectations. Euphoria that I'm actually going to be doing this, me who is this "young ciku". Worry on not being together with my loved ones for three whole months. Anxiety on whether this is going to work out fine, whether I'm going to freeze in the wintery land. *shivers*

I'm usually the "I can" girl. But I think I need this news to sink in for a few days first. After those few days, I'll still be nervous, the anxiety would still be there, but I won't be giving in to them so easily. Deep inside, I know I can do this.

So here's me publishing my first post with a blast of shocking news. 'Til the sun comes out tomorrow, toodles~!  :)